results were out last friday. grades weren't up to my expectations but who else have i got to blame? i need to take a dose of contentment.
having been through 16months of intensive studying, i finally realized that its not easy to get a degree. the journey was indeed tedious and tough but i'm glad it's over. i have seen pretty much in the past 16months; people with various expectations, different attitudes and goals in life.
i really appreciate the encouragement of certain people, because without them, i won't be able to complete my degree successfully. i need to say a big thank you to my parents. they gave me the go ahead to take this degree without any hesitation. they don't expect me to pay them back because they told me that so long as i put in effort, i want to study, they will support me. mum provided me with bottles and bowls of bird's nest and chicken essence while dad listened to and gave me advices while i whined and complained. he cut fruits for me and even sent them to my room, gave me vitamins everyday and told me that so long as i put in effort in things i do, its enough.
thank you my dearest bf. thank you for listening to my nonsense, non-stop whines and complaints. and for printing my projects after projects for me. for binding and delivering projects to me. for your encouragement. i know he did not know what exactly was i frustrated about but he still listened. :)
thank you my group of friends. you know who you are. also for gossiping with me, to listen to my frustrations. and for being understanding, wishing me good luck in my exams etc. thank you dearest gf, yh, sah, jas, gene. :)
it's finally over! =D
and its time for me to take a break before i embark on the next journey of my life, to meet my own goals.
it seems that i'm not ready to embark into the working society. its indeed a paradox. on one hand, my parents told me to take my time to search for a job i desire, while on the other, everyone has been asking me if i got any job yet. i'm not one who can sit at home for months after months because i want to meet the expectations i have of myself. yet, i have got so many things i want to do. i have got to tidy up my super messy table and drawers (time to clear away stacks of notes and books!) and i want to watch dramas, read storybooks, plan both bf's and my birthdays and the December holiday with my family. if i get a job anytime soon, i wont be able to complete so much. and of course, i don't expect to get leave for december. what should i do.
and because of what my parents suggested, i called to reject 3 job interviews, went for 1 and am now at a loss. one of my uncle has been really anxious for me as well. he gave me suggestions as to where to search for jobs since months ago. and although my parents told me to take my time, i feel that mum irks the sight of me at home. yes, i do feel bad cause i'm so lazy to lift my finger to help with the housework, and lazy to tidy my own stuff. and i ought to be scolded.
it's been years since i'm in such a loss. i hate it when i have no directions. dad helped me with such a situation years ago after O levels. i was in a dilemma, a total loss then too. to decide between JC or poly. and dad "forced" me to choose poly. and i'm so glad i heeded his advice after some struggles.
i need my sense of direction soon...
Precious you
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