the thing about poly is that its too big. u dun get much chances of excelling no matter how good/bad u r..and derez some damn thing known as peer evaluation. ur gd frend may appear SO nice to u but behind u, she/he can jus kill u silently.
The worst thing is, its not that u din do ur part of e job! u MUST be the leader! if not, e part of job given to u, u complete it, u still din do much! its like my BCA..my BMGT...well, i finished wad was given to me! i swear i did...n i finished them ON time. i tried to do my best..it may not be my fullest effort but i did it properly.. but still, i noe im being marked dwn..mayb not tt badly..but its still not fair! who can i complain to? well, ttz other ppl judgement..dey think u din do much n its your fault! and if u offer to do more, u din do it well enuff, the leader redo it, its your fault too! it means u do it last min...u ANYHOW do..mayb some ppl..dey r jus not gd at certain stuff..n if e output dun turn out well, it simply means u anihow do it...sometimes, just grab those typing in info job or those collaborating jobs..or mayb edit e whole thing..it will appear tt u did a lot..
its like...comparing myself n e person who did e least. the marks. its damn fucking pissed off one la! do i deserve this? i tried taking initiative. i bothered. i asked. and wad do i get in the end?
and this most recent thing tt jus happened. ohh chua jiesi! its a crime to live far! u dun deserve anithing or much lesser becuz u live in bedok! its YOUR fault for living far awae! thankiewww la...blame me. mayb it was wrong choice to choose so far awae..cant blame others but myself..not hving a mind of my own..got psychoed dere thanks to someone who changed so much! im jus dumb! n i din make trips dwn to tt fucking room to stay dere for hrs n its my fault. its not tt i din bother to stay back. i even went all e way dwn to collect a blazer n to stay for some "meeting" for few hrs n my frends had to wait for me. but still, its my fault! its my fault for not being more involved. i shld be e one contacting tchers n sending emails n tt will show tt u did more.. jus stay back n do nth it will reflect better on u too! i did my part..i did my profiling..i did e acknowledgements..n its still my wrong. u dunno wad others do behind ur back...u start to doubt..n dere goes e trust..its a 2 agst 1...i dunno wad e fuck is gg on..thankiew! u all may hv more leadership traits..no lor! i wun call it so..leaders will distribute job evenly n dey will care abt their members n not like this..so its MY fault for being more quiet.
its realli a mistake...n i cant run awae now. FUCK.
Precious you
6:50 PM |
derez no chance for regrets
whenifeellikefuckwhocanitelltoifderezsomeoneformetotalktowillibeabletosayitout.
wrong.oh so wrong.
Precious you
8:14 AM |
Saturday, February 25, 2006
n im sooooo proud of myself! haha.
Precious you
11:59 PM |
Friday, February 24, 2006
its after maec which suck too.
its after bmgt which suck as well.
and derez still another sucky poa to go...
haiz. im jus so disappointed in myself...haven been studying..burning earli morn oil..n i noe im gg to do soo badly..i noe it..i realli noe i will..
but pls, can at least let me pass?
dere goes my university..=(
felt worst den crap on wed noon...i almost died. almost. n mayb soon...
can i hv the sun pls? i wan it hot...realli burning..
n i cant wait for exams to b over...yet im dreading e trip cuz im scared...=X
25th feb 2006
147PM
Precious you
9:41 PM |
Thursday, February 16, 2006
social innovators forum 2006
had to wake up earli for econs lect n tutorial but it was a superrrr waste of tym..mrs ng repeated e same thing AGAIN..but i still think she is a good lecturer as well as tutor..a bit too motherly onli wad..n guess wad, i forgot to bring my ngee ann collar pin!!! but i managed to gt it frm mr kumar during e break..lucki...=X
huipeng n i left earli frm our econs tutorial..which i dun mind staying longer but..yeah we left..n met yuhong in e canteen..e 3 of us took a cab dwn to SMU admin building..was earli..n we saw our hardwork! e booklet! well, thanks to yu hong la..he did like 60% of it..den hp did 25% n i think i onli did 15% or lesser? =X well, i cant design..wad design team man! but i was realli happy to see e booklet done with our names on it! =D
e forum started half an hour late..but i was realli honoured to be given a chance to b dere...with prominent figures n speakers from all over the world..derez ms penny low, our MP for pasir-ris punggol GRC..derez Mrs yu-foo yee shoon, the minister of state for community development, youth and sports..as well as Dr pamela hartigan the founder of schwab foundation, ms wu qing, rev nic frances frm austalia, mr greg casagrande frm new zealand, ms jocelyn chng the director of sin hwa dee foodstuff industries as well as ms elim chew the founding n managing director of 77th street..
wanna share with ppl who read my blog wad i've learnt...soial entrepreneurship....its setting up a business for social purposes..
i enjoyed e whole forum superrrr lots! n i certainly learn a lot..all of them were realli humorous man..esp rev nic frances!!! i like him man! he's outstanding! n he's different..n he's realli superrr cute! derez totali no link btw him n a priest man...he's e type tt u think wld hang out in clubs drinking etc.... can u imagine him being a notti student? den a priest in a church? with an ex wife n kids? n now a social entrepreneur? with easybeinggreen under him? n 2 other major companies in australia? no link ya? but yea...y did he gif up soo mani things for social entrepreneurship? becuz of passion...he stayed in the church n wad did he say abt it? he respects jesus christ becuz of his passion..but he din see ani sense in staying on n he tot it was super screwed stayin dere..he wanted to do something better for e world..he still has his passion dere..n he believes tt passion will bring ppl further..
like he said..he wasnt a gd student..he was alwaes outstanding..as in standing outside e classroom..he alwaez try to do things n ppl alwaez see him as weird..he's different..n ya..everione is different..we ought to make a difference to others' lives..
n like wad mr greg mentioned abt motivation n passion..do develop a passion for things u like..n oso, things we do not like..with passion, one den can hv e motivation to do things...he was power man! he had soo mani organizations under him in USA but he faced a struggle..wad did he realli wan? he din noe..he gave up everithing..n he migrated to new zealand with his family..he sat dwn n think thru wad he wants in life..he wrote dwn everithing n he said tt he wld fulfil one by one slowly n he did..he din gif up..n now he's veri successful agn..he had mani financial companies under him in new zealand n these organizations actualli loan money to ppl who wants to set up their own businesses to help ppl..
derez ms wu qing..one look at her, i tot she wun understand anithing we were talking abt..she looks like she's 70? okie she is 69..n she can speak english better den ani of us here..she realli shocked me man! she was being ostracized..nobody think tt wad she said make ani sense..but she had a grp of ppl behind her supporting her all e way..her family, her understand husband..she din wan to gif up no matter who stops her frm doing so or saying tt she is crazy..she fought hard..n is still fighting..she din think tt women in china are useless..she din wan something known as gender differences..she fought for women rights n she did it..now she wans to fight for women in e rural parts of china..she noes tt its gg to b a tough journey for her but she has tt drive in her..she wants to do it! n she noes one day, she will be able to...
not to leave out ms elim chew n ms jocelyn chng..finalli e 2 sporeans...its not tt dey hv veri gd education..ms elim chew..she din noe how to write a proper business letter..she din noe soo mani things..but network..she has dreams n she wants to fulfil them...she found ppl with similar interests..n with network, she managed to establish 77th street..she managed to listen to the voices of teenagers...n she published a book known as "one voice" with e voices of teens being heard..i've yet to read tt book but i noe its gg to be super touching..
n i definitely admire dr pamela hartigan as well as ms penny low lots too! yeah man! women shldnt b left out in anithing! we can do it as well! it was a veri relaxing n inspirational talk..
during e tea break, we had to rush to swissotel to help out in e setting up of booth etc..n guess wad...i saw edison chen look a like!!! n derez this guy who look super like yixiang jus tt he got much bigger eyes!!! hahaa..omg...brighten up my nite lots! but sad...tt "edision" has a gf i suppose...superrr cute la! how cld i hv missed these 2 cutiesss frm business sch? yr 3s...woot..i'll b looking out for them..esp my "edison"!!! but hp n yh said tt he dun look like edison...mayb dey din realli notice him bah..haha...n e 3 of us..took superrrr lots of pics! n guess wad.....rev nic frances..he came to talk to us!!!!! he rmbed seeing us at e forum in e noon n he's e coolest guy i eva met! he din even tie his tie properly..n his shirt was superrrrr crumpled! n he asked us, do i look wrong? n i told him its cool n he luffed saying tt im cool too! haha...n we took pic with him!!! so excitin i tell u! i like him lotssss!!! n the CNA photographer took e 3 of us pic! wahaha...
n guess who won e social entreprenuer of the yr? its mr jack sim!!! he's the toilet man! go check out on him man....shld b able to find mani pics of him being wrapped up in toilet paper...yeahhzz! he won!
ohh the finalists were pastor don wong who went in n out of jail zillions of tyms n his back is superrr colourful with tattossss..but now he's e director of highpoint..an organization who helps mani prisoners etc...
derez rev sam kuna as well as mr aaron ng frm MINDS...shldnt mention too much abt him...=X
rev nic frances!!!!!! superrrr cool!
i simply love ystd!!! =D
n its back to studying soon......
passion..motivation...drive...dreams...i can do it!!!
17th feb 2006
1207pm
Precious you
7:30 PM |
Sunday, February 12, 2006
social entrepreneurship forum 2006 to attend..campus run on 18th...n exams xactly one wk awae..2 more major events...thankiewww man..getting myself into soo much shit..n i haven been doing wad im supposed to..i noe i shld..but i cant gt started..im jus a slacker or free rider or wadever u call it..but things jus soo hard in poly..its not within wad u wanna do..its not tt i dunwan to help..i did my part..n its jus not enuff..n izit my fault for staying soo far? oh ya. my choice. so im wrong..i shldnt be dere in e first place? so i dun deserve wad i got? who can i complain to? okie..at least derez someone for me to tell to...
but i noe its gonna be good for me..it better be..
haiz...so much things i wanna do..jus slacking at home doing nth..n meet up my dearestttt..its been ages since i last saw them...omg miss them like mad..
i wanna write dwn my memories...wad i hv gone thru...i wanna sit dwn at some cafe to finish reading storybooks after books...i wanna jus stone n listen to music...i jus wan to waste my tym awae...haiz...
dunno wad im doing...sometime ppl jus drift awae...things arent like before..friends come n go..onli those who bother stay...but im afraid..im gg to be sooo alone...y muz dere b politics in this world? y cant things go ur way? i feel like crying soo much but i dunwan..i shld ctrl my tears...i feel worst den crap..haiz.
n e worst thing is...im fat! last nite dinner shld weigh at least 2kg man! but i luv e chilli crab!!!!!!
13 feb 06
1143am
Precious you
7:23 PM |
Friday, February 10, 2006
M Hotel is cool. Its located at tanjong pagar and it is within walking distance from the train station. So, the TRM students. Oh have i said that i am switching course? Yes, i will be officially a Tourism and Resort Management student in Ngee Ann Polytechnic once the new semester starts. I know i will definitely miss Business Studies but i am so sure that i will not regret my choice. Can't wait to start learning so many interesting things! Ok so back to the main topic, M Hotel. I went there yesterday for an on-site learning with Ms Ng etc. Its like the prefect place for wedding couples. They are the only hotel in singapore that has a jacuzzi IN the executive suites and the glass windows are actually transparent. However, they can be tinted with a remote control. It's super cool. Not only that, they have the J Bar and the design in there simply rocks! Very cosy and nice place. Not forgetting the pool and spa. It's so romantic i tell you. They even asked us to write in our resumes.
I notice that i have been writing in proper english although it isn't good english. Well, as least that is a start.
Congrats dunman! I suppose Mrs Neo and all teachers are super happy. They did so well for their O levels! BUT. Our batch was the one who had a breakthrough so we are still better! =P
my throat hurts like mad. =(
11th feb 2006
1234PM
Precious you
8:12 PM |
ARGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH
Precious you
7:41 AM |
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Global smart
+
Passion
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Winning attitude
haha....i still like this..
Precious you
2:28 AM |